The Heart of the Matter

Diary entry:

Today, September 25, 2014

Dear FATHER, 

I bless YOUR name!! Thank YOU for giving me TRUE LIFE and a reason to live!! Thank YOU for this day! Psalms 115:14 The LORD will increase you(me) more and more, you(me) and your(my) children!! Amen!! I agree!! Hallelujah!! Today is the day that the LORD has made. I will rejoice and be glad in it!! No weapon formed against me shall prosper!! I decree and declare this day will bring me and my family unexpected blessings from the North, South, East and West!! IN JESUS' NAME...AMEN!!

As I reflect on my life, I realize that I have been through some low valleys just in the past few months...BUT my heart hasn't experienced the blow of the valley! I can just remember only last year around July that I was suffering financially and almost..somebody say ALMOST...threw in the towel. But the HEART OF MY HEAVENLY FATHER wouldn't allow me to go through a defeat. See because of the love in HIS HEART towards Jamita, I couldn't wallow in the valley long. At my lowest, I called on my HELP!! And because of HOLY SPIRIT, I began to exam the matters of my heart.

How am(was) I dealing with this valley through my actions?

How am(was) I responding with my words concerning this valley experience?

Above all..how am(was) I treating people during my valley experience?

Oh how I wanted to answer these questions with a godly answer, but when I examed my heart...(put a pen right there)..

heart defined in Webster Dictionary means

: the organ in your chest that pumps blood through your veins and arteries

: the front part of your chest

: the heart thought of as the place where emotions are felt

Now heart according to the wisdom of the HOLY SPIRIT(ask and it shall be given...let any man who lacks wisdom, let him ask of GOD who will give it librately and upbraided not) means 

: the life line

: the real person

: the inner most part of where a human stores good or bad thoughts

OOOO...WEEEEE...

Pick up the pen!!

Now from those definitions... if your heart is not functioning properly, the blood doesn't flow properly, your chest is exposed causing sickness and disease to enter, and your actions show just what has been lurking under that mask. OH MY!!! HELP LORD!!

What state is your heart in right now?

Please know that the heart of the matter is what lies beneath when all hell breaks loose. How do you react to adversity? How do you act when you're in your valley? How do you act when you on top of the mountain? 

What is the matter with your heart?

If you know that your heart is going through a battle with praising your way through in spite of, pray this prayer with me:

Heavenly FATHER, I realize that my heart is not functioning properly, but I confess my sins to YOU because YOU are faithful and just to forgive me and cleanse me of all unrighteousness. Since YOUR love saved me from death and sin, I can forgive my brethren his/her trespassing against me. I can celebrate even in the valley because I know you will never leave me nor forsake me. I lay my heart on the potter's wheel and asked that YOU shape and mold it into the heart that JESUS' has. In spite of what my eyes see and ears hear, YOU are still in control of all thingsl!! And thank YOU that even in the state I am in right now, I KNOW YOU ARE STILL GOD! Guide me HOLY SPIRIT!! Thank YOU FATHER! In JESUS' name...AMEN AMEN AMEN

more to come on the Heart of the Matter

Because YOU know..

Jeremiah 29:11 I know the thoughts I think towards you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.

Up early this morning thinking....

When life has pushed me to the point of doubt, I fail sometimes to the flesh. What I can do to fix this? How did I get here? Who do I call on to rescue me RIGHT NOW? Where do I turn? 

Have you ever been here?

Let's go a little deeper.... GOD how could you let this happen to me? Where are YOU GOD in my situation? Do YOU see me in all this pain?  When will YOU come deliver me out of this? 

I know I'm not by myself. BUT GOD

See the thing is when I get in my flesh, I forget that GOD is my FATHER!! (let's stop there for a minute)

A good FATHER gives HIS child(ren) HIS name, provides, encourages, defends, loves unconditionally, and does what is BEST for HIS child(ren).

With that being said, I had to reflect on the WORD of GOD this morning. HE does know the thoughts HE thinks toward me. See that thing hit me deep!! BECAUSE HE KNOWS, I'M ASSURED THAT MY PRESENT STATE WILL PASS!! 

See if I'm low in spirit(depressed, hopeless, overwhelmed, sick), HE KNOWS WHAT HE THINKS OF ME AND HE THINKS NO EVIL, BUT HIS THOUGHTS ARE THAT I HAVE PEACE AND AN END OF GREAT EXPECTION!!

My friend I pray today that you as well know that though you may not feel on top of the world today YOU ARE ON GOD'S MIND....YOU ARE ON YOUR FATHER'S MIND TODAY!!! HE loves you in spite of your shortcoming.

Guess what? If you are reading this, THERE IS HOPE!!! Don't give up and don't give in, but hold on. YOU...YES YOU!! YOU CARRY HIS NAME AND BECAUSE OF THAT HE HAS TO COME AND SEE ABOUT YOU. BE ENCOURAGED TO KNOW THAT TODAY IS THE BEST DAY OF YOUR LIFE.  Why you may ask? BECAUSE YOUR FATHER WOKE ME UP EARLY TO WRITE THIS BLOG WITH URGENCY!! YOU'RE ON HIS MIND MY FRIEND!!!

Prayer for you: Dear FATHER, I come broken, heart heavy, depressed, hopeless, sick, and confused, but because I know YOU KNOW THE THOUGHTS YOU HAVE TOWARD ME, I give ME to you TODAY!!! I realize that I tried to fix it, work it out, call on people and not YOU first and because of ME being out of order, MY LIFE is in shambles. FATHER please forgive me. I speak life NOW in my situation and circumstance. I see YOUR HAND at work in my life!! NOW FATHER I thank YOU for a END OF GREAT EXPECTION!!

If you believe that, open your mouth and give GOD a praise like never before!!! GO TODAY AND LIVE!!!

PSALM 118:

17 I shall not die, but live, and declare the works of the Lord.

IN JESUS' NAME AMEN!!

Facing My Giant

1Samuel 17:37
David said moreover, The LORD that delivered me out of the paw of the lion, and out of the paw of the bear, he will deliver me out of the hand of this Philistine. And Saul said unto David, Go, and the LORD be with thee.

According to Webster Dictionary:
to face means in or into direct contact or confrontation
my means made or done by me
giant means something unusually large or powerful.

Now if I can put into my own words...to face my giant means to confront the very thing I've given power to in my weakness!!! 

Oh my! When I think about all that I've given power to, I cringe...why? Because instead of trusting GOD, I made myself believe that whatever the circumstance was had more power. 

Not to point a finger or discourage my readers, but let's just keep it real. We(you & I) have put circumstances before the one who said "I came that you may have life and have life more abundantly"! "I will never leave thee nor forsake thee"! "Behold, I give unto you power to tread on serpents and scorpions, and over all the power of the enemy: AND NOTHING SHALL BY ANY MEANS HURT YOU"!

Hallelujah!!

Now let's look at the little sheperd boy named David! David, not yet appointed king of Jerusalem, told King Saul that THE LORD(MY DELIVERER) who has delivered me from the paw of the lion(represent being under the rule of this world) and out of the paw of the bear(represent being under strong pressure/temptation) WILL(no doubt about it) deliver me out of the hand of this Philistine(Goliath the giant, the one in whom the Philistines put their trust)! With that being said, King Saul said, "Go, and THE LORD be with thee!"  

Where is our "NO DOUBT ABOUT IT" FAITH? 

If we(you and I) think of the paw of the lion and the paw of the bear the LORD has delivered us from, why can't we believe that  HE will deliver us from the hand of the this Philistine? Let's face the giant(s) in our lives!!

And let's do it without FEAR, DOUBT, CONFUSION, STRESS, DEPRESSION, HEARTACHES, UNFORGIVENESS AND BITTERNESS!! 

If you look in the following verses, King Saul gives David armour to wear to defeat this giant, but it weighed him down. David took those things off that weighed him down and picked up five(the number of grace) smooth rocks and pulled a sling from his shepherd's bag!!!! With one of the rocks, David smote the giant and with the sword of the enemy cut his head off!

GLORY!!!

"TAKE OFF OF THOSE WEIGHTS THAT SO EASILY BESET YOU", take up GRACE and face your giant!!! Remember GOD is with thee(you)!!! 

We must take that very thing that we have given power and cut it's head off!! No more spiritual premature births!! No more abandon spiritual gifts!! No more spiritual deaths of your destiny or purpose! TOGETHER WE WILL FACE OUR GIANTS!! AMEN!! Our future holds so many blessing..so let's not miss them! 

GO FACE THAT GIANT(S)!!

Here's a prayer for you:

Most gracious and eternal FATHER, I believe YOU are a "rewarder of them that diligently seek YOU!" I surrender my will to YOUR WILL. I ask that YOU forgive me for allowing my giant to be more powerful then YOU ARE! This day I face the giant(s) that have me paralyzed to move into my destiny or the next level in YOU!! I NOW know that "GREATER IS HE THAT IS IN ME THAN HE THAT IS IN THE WORLD!!" So FATHER as YOU have so faithfully delivered me before, I have that "no doubt about it faith" that YOU WILL do it again!! My soul says, "Yes LORD!!"  It's in JESUS' name that I pray this prayer! AMEN!!

Be blessed!

It's been nailed to the cross!!!!

Colossians 2:11-15 MSG

Entering into this fullness is not something you figure out or achieve. It’s not a matter of being circumcised or keeping a long list of laws. No, you’re already in —insiders—not through some secretive initiation rite but rather through what Christ has already gone through for you, destroying the power of sin. If it’s an initiation ritual you’re after, you’ve already been through it by submitting to baptism. Going under the water was a burial of your old life; coming up out of it was a resurrection, God raising you from the dead as he did Christ. When you were stuck in your old sin-dead life, you were incapable of responding to God. God brought you alive—right along with Christ! Think of it! All sins forgiven, the slate wiped clean, that old arrest warrant canceled and nailed to Christ’s cross. He stripped all the spiritual tyrants in the universe of their sham authority at the Cross and marched them naked through the streets.


How many of us have a past? (RAISE YOUR HAND!!)

Now, how many of us have some things that we pray Will not resurface? Have you loss sleep because of it? Has the enemy tried to paralyze you with it? Are you questioning your worthiness, ability to be more than a conqueror, ability in moving to the next level of your life, etc...

Hold on don't give in to fear because your past has been wiped clean...how do I know because GOD'S WORD said, "It's been nailed to the CROSS!!!"

I have a past that recently reared it's ugly head & I almost threw in the towel....BUT GOD!!! I realized that GOD had cleaned my slate, but the world wants to keep me bound!  Somebody say, "It's been nailed to the CROSS!!"

My story may set another sister/brother free!

SO HERE GOES EVERYTHING....

It was 2002, single Mom trying to make a better life for me & my two boys(Chris 8 & Jacorey 4). I was back in school and was determined to finish. This particular Friday I was going to school to take my final English Comp exam, but there was a problem....I DIDN'T HAVE A BABYSITTER. I had a decision to make...school was 15-20 mins away & I was just going to take my test and come straight home..I could leave the kids at home set the alarm and lock the storm door(thinking the boys will be ok just for a few minutes)!

The HOLY SPIRIT was sending  off an alarm in my belly, but I didn't yield to HIS voice.

I decided to leave them and rush to school, but before I could get to school, I had the wind knocked out of me(like someone had punched me in my belly and it was just me in the car)...ding ding ding THE HOLY SPIRIT WAS WARNING ME!!! & I knew it, but I didn't listen.

10 mins into class, I was asked to come out because someone was looking for me...The police were there. I almost lost it, but made it home without wrecking or hyperventilating.

Arrived home and 2 cop cars were in my yard!!!! LORD WHAT I HAVE DONE? 

I rushed to the door to be stopped by a rude cop...."This is quiet neighborhood & they don't need trouble living here!" What? I'm crying wanting to get to my babies...he finally said that they were fine. They were in the cop's car terrified....WHAT HAVE I DONE?

The HOLY SPIRIT was WARNING ME that as soon as I drove out of the driveway, my 8 year old had opened the door which set the alarm off.  I had no way of knowing because the storm door was locked or I would have seen him.

Long story short, I was arrested for child neglect. No no no I'm a good momma. I was just trying to go to school and better my family's life. Oh GOD!! But because I didn't yield to the HOLY SPIRIT, I was in handcuffs and was in the County jail for 35 mins(It seemed like a life time!)

To bring this home today, never in a million years did I think this would come back to hinder me after all these years, but it did. Now what I want to say is that it hasn't stopped me, but it did test my faith. I found out that I haven't arrived and I can't do nothing by myself. If I didn't have two particular friends loving & praying for me & a sister that spoke LIFE back into me, I would be one beat up CHRISTIAN. See GOD allowed me to experience this thing again to know I'm not my own & I need HIM.

Know this... your past is just that...YOUR PAST!!! You're no longer guilty..SN: If you've accepted JESUS CHRIST as your LORD & SAVIOR! All sins forgiven, the slate wiped clean, that old arrest warrant canceled and nailed to Christ’s cross!

My friend said something that saved me from committing a sin with my mouth...She said, "This makes me appreciate you more because you're real...a human." **crazy face..I had been seen as Ms.Holier than thou** I'm not GOD! Matter fact on my best days, I'm no more than a filthy rag...had to be brought to my senses...

YOU(I) have a past, but your(my) past doesn't have you(me).

My prayer is to keep it real, trust somebody, & always depend & listen to the HOLY SPIRIT! HE LOVES YOU AND WANTS TO PROTECT YOU.

Now if you are struggling with your past failures, today GOD SAYS, ."YOUR SLATE IS CLEAN!" You are forgiven. Now forgive yourself. Walk into the next level of blessing because guess what HE KNOWS THE THOUGHTS HE THINKS TOWARD YOU. THOUGHTS  OF PEACE & NOT EVIL..TO GIVE YOU HOPE & AN EXPECTANT END!! Get up and praise HIM..not for what you see, but for what you don't!

SN: My sons are 19 & 15. Holding down two jobs & starting his second year in college Chris) & honor roll student & headed his student body for 4 years as Class President(Jacorey)! I'm blessed!

NO MORE SHAME!!

This is my life in snippets! You are  going to have to buy my book when I finish to get it all.

Tired..Broken..Confused

I know it seems like it's been forever, but I'm going to get all of this goodness out of me..one way or another!! Here goes everything....

I try to encourage so many that I forget GOD LOVES ME TOO!!! I want to speak to the hearts of the people who give until they have given out!!!!

Have you ever found yourself in a battle that seemed unending? How about you've prayed and praised but to no avail? After doing all you were humanly possibly could do, you stood and stood and stood...ok NOW COMES THE QUESTIONING BUT GOD WHY.....

Stay with me

A few more questions...Have you ever helped another sister/brother/friend when they were in a battle? Have you ever prayed for a sister/brother/friend to see GOD move immediately on their behalf? And what about if it took a while to come to pass, you stood and stood with him/her encouraging him/her to WAIT ON THE LORD! 

I know..... if you can't say a word, just wave your hands!!! JESUS

Text: Acts 9:36-41

Now let me break this down as briefly as I can: 

In Joppa was a disciple named Tabitha(Greek Dorcas) which meant gazelle. SN: a gazelle is an animal who will take off in full speed 60 miles per hour or move at a steady pace of 30 miles per hour. 

Now with that being established, Tabitha was a "Giver from her heart!!" She went full speed feeding and caring for the widows, taking care of the sick, giving her time to the orphans and on top of that she ran her own clothing business. Any of this sounds familiar? If I can bring it home, she took care of everything and everybody BUT herself! Scripture doesn't say that she had a family, but if she did, she was giving constantly and running on empty..JESUS!!

THE WORD OF GOD says that she had given so "she got sick and died"....just gave out! Now the story didn't end there, but I'm going to end there with this... When you've given all you can give, then let go!!! Don't think that it's your place to make it happen. If you can trust GOD to give you enough strength to help the next person, believe in HIM enough to give you strength to provide your every need. You are worth HIS LOVE AND HIS BLESSINGS! Trust GOD enough to know that HE will not leave you empty to the point there is no more to give or that there is no more life in you!! 

TIRED BROKEN CONFUSED....STOP & REFOCUS

SAY, "I CAN'T DO IT BY MYSELF! I NEED HELP! NO! NOT TODAY, IT CAN WAIT! "

Now say, "I AM WORTH GOD'S BLESSINGS! WHAT I ASK IN JESUS' NAME & BELIEVE I WILL RECEIVE! GOD LOVES ME, TOO!"

You (I) were not put on this earth to do it alone! Rest in JESUS!

Dear Father, I trust you with my life. I ask that you forgive me for thinking I can do it on my own. I can't! I need YOU! Give me wisdom to know when enough is enough. Give me knowledge to do for others within my means. And FATHER give me understanding to know  I'm not YOU! I want to stay in YOUR PERFECT WILL!! To whom much is given, much is required. Help me to know when YOU'VE given me an assignment and when it's just me wanting to be helpful. Thank you for allowing me another chance. IN THE POWERFUL NAME OF JESUS I PRAY...AMEN! 

Now if you've prayed that prayer, adjust your life to be balanced and productive for the Kingdom! 

To be continued.....

Who would have thought?

James 1

King James Version (KJV)

² My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into divers temptations;
³ Knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience.
⁴ But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing.

Hello all, I know it's been a while, but I am back! Please if you are following me, keep following me. If you're not following me, please follow me...I promise you GOD has some things HE wants to share with you that you will no longer feel alone in your struggle. Also that your hope may be established again in HIM. You're FATHER loves you and I know becasue HE loves me too. Read on.....

I was inspired today to share this experience of my journey..remember transparency and raw...so don't look down on me because WHO WOULD HAVE THOUGHT?...

Today I was listening to a man who said "I'M NOT A BUM. I'M A HUMAN BEING!" Someone posted his story on facebook and immediately something began to move in my belly. I don't look down on no one, but at one point in my life, I could see me not eagered to help as I am now. Follow me you will understand....(maybe you have wrestled with this same problem, but I tell you to give until it hurts, because you never know it could be you one day...)

I think it was in the summer of 2000. My oldest was 7(Chris) and my baby was 3(Jacorey) and my chips fell hard. I was working, but I wasn't making enough to get by. I borrowed from my family and friends..pride stopped me from getting any government assistance because I promised myself I wasn't going to go through the system to provide for my family. ..I was abled bodied and I worked...HARD!

So how many of you know without having the ends meeting something was about to go down that I've never experienced before in my life?

Borrowing money started to build up when I couldn't pay it all back...LORD what am I going to do? Three year old in daycare and now having to put the seven year old in summer camp...where was the money coming from?  Y'all I ended up homeless. Yes, homeless with two small children. I was broke, disappointed, shame, and confused. Where was I going to live?

Now this was my low...so I thought! I was asked to leave the place I was staying because I couldn't afford it by people I went to church with! Stop bucking your eyes and close your mouth...yes, my brother and sister in CHRIST ASKED ME TO PACK UP AND MOVE. Now before you began to judge, keep reading...

I thought it couldn't get any worse.....(think again)...business floated around the church and I was never confronted personally nor helped by those naysayers, but my character was being put on trial....in the words of my brother, "I'm not a BUM! I'm a human being!" Now LORD really what am I going to do? Can't run to the church? Home is 3 hours away..money low....what am I going to do?

Who would have thought...I worked at a summer camp that summer and my kids were able to attend half price...things looking up...sure, but there was still a problem...NO PLACE TO STAY. I can remember a few people opening their doors to me, but I wouldn't let my kids stay..I would always stay, but let them stay with their dad. Trying to keep things from them and I did for the most part.

How many of you know I cried when they were not watching? How many of you know how low I was in my spirit? How many of you know my prayers took on different meaning than what they meant before?  How many of you know I was angry at myself, their dad, the church, and GOD? Have you been here or are you here now? Read on.....

I remember going to my hometown every week when I got my paycheck to get in my mom's lap and just cry. She(RIP BJT) was always there for me to run to, but it didn't make it better because I dreaded coming back to Desoto County on Sundays. So I took a deep hard look at my situation and prayed! One prayer I remember was "GOD, YOU know where I am and YOU knew I was going to be here...so HELP ME understand and go through this process! YOU said YOU would never leave me nor forsake me...YOU said that so I'm holding YOU to what YOU said...deliver us! We need a place to stay!"

Now in between different people's homes, I decided I would take my money, save some, and stay in a hotel because I missed kissing my kids good night. I stopped traveling back and forth home to my mom because GOD said that if I trusted HIM with my life, then I had to trust HIM without me trying to spare my feelings...that hit somebody there!! just say "Ouch!" and keep on going...(See I was in a safe place.  A place which I was comfortable and loved. Nothing wrong with that...yes, it is when GOD is trying to take me from glory to glory!...was skipping out on the place that was molding me THE CHURCH in which I was attending..) Keep reading...

How many of you know that kids are so innocent...while we are trying to cover them from the hardship, they are looking at that thing as a vacation. Staying in a hotel made my kids think we were vacationing...why because when do you normally stay in a hotel....on vacation...lol They had no clue!

Summer was approaching an end and I was desperate for a place before school started back...didn't want my kids to say we were still on vacation because we were living in a hotel. So the church I was working at had no clue I was homeless..why because I came to work everyday, on time, and worked diligently. SN Don't allow your situation to dictate how your life flows...YOU REPRESENT YOUR CREATOR! It could have been that and pride.."I don't want nobody to know nothing!" One day, I was late and called to the office to speak with the Pastor...oh man! I had to tell him what I didn't want him to know, but in doing so, my blessing came!

Who would have thought...I was homeless(not to the extreme of having to live under bridges or on the street, but without my own with two small kids)? Who would have thought...I would have to sacrifice kissing my kids good night and giving them their baths because I was trying to shield them from the shame that I failed them? Who would have thought...I would be angry with GOD for allowing this to happen? Who would have thought...

I wouldn't have and neither did some of GOD'S best people who are still homeless. GOD delivered me because HE had to prepare me for the multitude. If I hadn't gone through failure, homelessness, without comfort, no money to pay the bills, humility, disgrace, and angry, I would not be able to relate to the multitude HE had lined up along my path to reach. I'm not ashamed to share my story because somebody needs to know you're not alone in this fight and GOD hasn't forgotten about you! My experience was a summer, yours maybe months or years, but whatever it maybe...don't give up on GOD because HE won't give up on you!

Who would have thought...I wouldn't have, but GOD did!

SN: To all my people in the struggle TRUST GOD!

You see the glory, but you don't know the story! Now I can say to the sister and brother who told me to pack up....Thank you! and to the church that put my character on trial...Thank you! and to my HEAVENLY FATHER...IF IT HAD NOT BEEN FOR YOU BEING ON MY SIDE WHERE WOULD I BE!

After that summer, I have been blessed to be a blessing!

From a Boy To a Man

Proverbs 22:6
Train up a child in the way he should go: and when he is old, he will not depart from it.


To all of the mommies and daddies in the world, there will be a day that our sweet adorable children will grow up to be smartmouthed, know-it-all teenagers and well rounded adults...who will(& I promise you) say these words, "I wish I would have listened to my mom/dad."

I have been going back and forth with how I'm feeling about my eldest flying the coop. lol He has sho' nuff taught me how to pray for hours, cry at the drop of a dime, resight Prov. 22:6 & Epheshian 6: 1-3 while whipping his behind, and rejoice for every accomplishment that makes a mom proud or when he makes grown up decisions that will change his life forever(for the good).He's mine and I wouldn't trade him for the world....From a boy to a man.....

I am going to let you guys into my letter to my eldest:

Dear Chris, when I first laid eyes on you, I fell in love with you! I can honestly say that you were the very first that I'd ever said that I would give my life for. Watching you grow up has brought pain, shame, and pride. Pain....because I knew one day you would no longer need your mom to make decisions, tuck you in, kiss your booboos or cuddle you in my arms for comfort. (tears...because I will always hope that I will always be needed) Shame...because when you came into who you really were, you would say whatever and ask some questions of adults that made us all uncomfortable....also when you would do things against all your Spiritual Upbringing.(tears..because I know that all you have gone through has played a major role in who you have become today) Pride(joy)...because you have overcome so many things that were said that you wouldn't, you have a giving heart, you love your family and GOD, you have a "go get it" spirit, you can find a joke in the worst situations, and you are responsible. (tears..you have done somethings that I was too scared to do, until you said I could...you have shown me that I have instilled in you that you can do all things through CHRIST which strengthens you...YOU ARE MY SON!!) Chris, GOD has given you me temporarily and I pray that I have given you some nuggets that will cause you to live life to the fulliest with HIM in front, beside and behind you. Remember the scripture that has seen you through so many tough issues...Psalm 100! I love you with all that is within me! I'm never too far that you can call and I will come running. From a rough little boy to a wise, gentle, and strongwilled young man...Chris Harper, you have become the young man that I've prayed for and will always pray that you will prosper in all your ways.


My first born is now a man. He is living home to join the Navy. I will miss him, but I know he has made this decision based on him knowing that he needs discipline and focus on achieving a career that will fulfill him not just for today, but for his future. I see him finding many blessings from the decision he has made. When he comes back, he will no longer be the boy I tried to shield from the world, but he will be the man that GOD had tucked in him all along. Giving GOD the glory because I trained him up in HIS WORD and that, that very WORD will become alive to him one day soon.

......from a boy to a man!!!

a piece of a momma's heart