Jeremiah 29:11
New American Standard Bible (NASB)
11 For I know the plans that I have for you,’ declares the Lord, ‘plans for welfare and not for calamity to give you a future and a hope.
Well off to college I go & so not ready, but at least I'm not a virgin(how stupid)!!! I enter college with the mindset that I was going to meet new people and I could be true to myself(hey..nobody knew me...a fresh start!) Could this really be a new start for this unusual young lady? Well Mississippi State University here comes Jamita Renepte Townsend...watch out?
Remember this young lady was embarking on a whole new outlook on life...what in the world was a new outlook to an old mindset. I told you to have an openmind going through this journey with me. Here goes everything!!!
August of 1991, I stepped onto the campus of MSU with a smile on my face, a strut and sway in my walk, fear in my heart and mind questioning what had I gotten myself into. I was in a battle in my own self. Frankly, Jamita was her own enemy. It hurts to say that I was against my own self...my future, my destiny, my ministry, my beliefs...THE REAL ME!!!
Wooohsaa!!!!...ok Freshman year started off pretty ok, but remember when I said I had become a loner...uhhh yea walked to class alone with my head down and in full stride, loved my roommate, but would have loved her more from a distance(why didn't I get a room by myself....it wasn't her it was me, but I couldn't express that)!! Eventually loss a good friend because of the inner me.
On a happy note, I became friends with some cool dudes...the brothers of Phi Beta Sigma!! Well this relationship came from one of the brothers spotting me walking across campus...head down and in full stride to class. I was in the Union meeting my roomie and was approached by this tall bald dark chocolate brother wearing his letters from Phi Beta Sigma Fraternity. He said, "Hi, what's your name Miss Lady?" Me, "uhhhh, hi I'm ok!"...girl pull it together your name is not ok...and yes he is talking to you....He laughed and said "Your name is ok really?" Me, "No..(heehee)..my name is Jamita!"...then I immediately got on the defensive, stood tall and eyes opened wide..like come on with a joke if you think you're bad(LORD HELP ME)! He said, "What a lovely name, for lovely young lady!" Me, "Thanks!"...but really questioning his motives! Still in that place of feeling if I could love and be loved, but in this instance just to have a good conversation without my guard up. Though I was wrestling with my insecurities, I had a big smile on my face...what woman wouldn't looking up at this hottie. Lol
As we talked, he told me that he had been watching me. Huh? LORD IS HE CRAZY? Well, he continued to say why don't you walk with a friend across campus. He said that my head is down and I'm in full speed going to class. "Look up because you are missing the world around you!" And from that day on, I walked with my group from Pulley dorm and I was checking out the world around me. I saw my Sigma friend every morning and he waved with this huge smile on his face....then one smile became 10. Lol the brothers were scoping me out. Lol
But the struggled continued....even though I became the life of many dances and danced with many Sigmas...even got up the nerves to go out on a date with one of their line brothers...my inner me almost paralyzed my life. The twists and turn of the life of the young lady Jamita.
SN: I so wanted to be a Zeta at State, but guess what..so insecure that I didn't!
Questions: What in you is causing you not to embrace your destiny and move form one place to the next? Have your inner you paralyzed you to the point that you have become complacent in less than striving for more?
Take 7 coming very soon
Well off to college I go & so not ready, but at least I'm not a virgin(how stupid)!!! I enter college with the mindset that I was going to meet new people and I could be true to myself(hey..nobody knew me...a fresh start!) Could this really be a new start for this unusual young lady? Well Mississippi State University here comes Jamita Renepte Townsend...watch out?
Remember this young lady was embarking on a whole new outlook on life...what in the world was a new outlook to an old mindset. I told you to have an openmind going through this journey with me. Here goes everything!!!
August of 1991, I stepped onto the campus of MSU with a smile on my face, a strut and sway in my walk, fear in my heart and mind questioning what had I gotten myself into. I was in a battle in my own self. Frankly, Jamita was her own enemy. It hurts to say that I was against my own self...my future, my destiny, my ministry, my beliefs...THE REAL ME!!!
Wooohsaa!!!!...ok Freshman year started off pretty ok, but remember when I said I had become a loner...uhhh yea walked to class alone with my head down and in full stride, loved my roommate, but would have loved her more from a distance(why didn't I get a room by myself....it wasn't her it was me, but I couldn't express that)!! Eventually loss a good friend because of the inner me.
On a happy note, I became friends with some cool dudes...the brothers of Phi Beta Sigma!! Well this relationship came from one of the brothers spotting me walking across campus...head down and in full stride to class. I was in the Union meeting my roomie and was approached by this tall bald dark chocolate brother wearing his letters from Phi Beta Sigma Fraternity. He said, "Hi, what's your name Miss Lady?" Me, "uhhhh, hi I'm ok!"...girl pull it together your name is not ok...and yes he is talking to you....He laughed and said "Your name is ok really?" Me, "No..(heehee)..my name is Jamita!"...then I immediately got on the defensive, stood tall and eyes opened wide..like come on with a joke if you think you're bad(LORD HELP ME)! He said, "What a lovely name, for lovely young lady!" Me, "Thanks!"...but really questioning his motives! Still in that place of feeling if I could love and be loved, but in this instance just to have a good conversation without my guard up. Though I was wrestling with my insecurities, I had a big smile on my face...what woman wouldn't looking up at this hottie. Lol
As we talked, he told me that he had been watching me. Huh? LORD IS HE CRAZY? Well, he continued to say why don't you walk with a friend across campus. He said that my head is down and I'm in full speed going to class. "Look up because you are missing the world around you!" And from that day on, I walked with my group from Pulley dorm and I was checking out the world around me. I saw my Sigma friend every morning and he waved with this huge smile on his face....then one smile became 10. Lol the brothers were scoping me out. Lol
But the struggled continued....even though I became the life of many dances and danced with many Sigmas...even got up the nerves to go out on a date with one of their line brothers...my inner me almost paralyzed my life. The twists and turn of the life of the young lady Jamita.
SN: I so wanted to be a Zeta at State, but guess what..so insecure that I didn't!
Questions: What in you is causing you not to embrace your destiny and move form one place to the next? Have your inner you paralyzed you to the point that you have become complacent in less than striving for more?
Take 7 coming very soon
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