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Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the thoughts I think towards you said the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil to give you an expectant end.


Well at one point in my life, I had no clue what this scripture really meant. But if you allow me to express myself, than you will see this scripture become alive in my journey. Get the Kleenex and weep with me...but know as you take this journey with me there are some triumphant times that your and mine tears will be indeed tears of joy!!! Here goes everything:

I was born Jamita Renepte Townsend...yea I know the name uhhh was unusual and I wanted to change it when I became old enough to do so. My thought was why this odd name. Well I couldn't do to much about it, but live with it until I GOT OLD ENOUGH TO CHANGE IT! What was I going to change it to you ask....I don't know...it just didn't fit me and I didn't fit it.

Yea I know you're thinking...simple problem...we all go through not fitting in. Well remember this is my journey and when we reached the present then you will understand why the problem I had was not so simple after all.

Remember I said the name didn't fit me and I didn't fit it? Well let me tell you this was an unusual name for an unusual little girl. Unusual yes...uncommon, rare(truth be told I didn't get me either)...
1. GOD gives me this out of this world name(if you find the meaning let me know)
2. I had an oval face, thick eyebrows, long lashes, skinny legs, booty, and "big lips"(an insulting name that was given to me by some evil lil kids)
3. Soft heart(cried a lot in my secret place)
4. This was the kicker....I was never a follower no matter how hard I tried to be with the in crowd...it wasn't happening(why GOD..all I wanted to be was cool..whatever that meant)
5. Here's the unusual thing....I prayed for the people who hurt me at a young tender age(what is really going on all I wanted was somebody to beat them up so I wouldn't be upset to go to school or scared..gosh)

I didn't understand why I had been chosen for the life I was living....why didn't my parents have enough money so that I could dress like the cool kids and maybe that would've helped me not stand out so much.....OH GOD HELP THIS YOUNG GIRL NAMED JAMITA ACCEPT WHO YOU MADE HER TO BE!!! Tears

Question: have you ever questioned your existence? If so, please continue to take this journey with me. I promise you GOD KNOWS THE THOUGHTS HE THINKS TOWARDS YOU!!! And they are all good!!!!

Part 2 tomorrow