Jeremiah 29:11
New International Version (NIV)
11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Oh how awesome it was and is to hear from MY FATHER!!! At the tender age of 12, I gave my life(all of me) to GOD. I was saved that night in my secret place and on that following Sunday, I went up and took the chair before the world to become baptized. I was not playing about my new found worth and I believed GOD that I was fearfully and wonderfully made. My mustard seed faith was rapidly growing. I felt I could take on the world with GOD on my side. I was still scared, but it didn't show on the outside. My emotions had not yet caught up with the renewed man yet. Look at your neighbor and say "but GOD knew my heart". Glory!!!
Let me give you a few inserts of the next several years of my life that are needed to understand where this journey is going:
Ages 12-13: Jamita had found her worth because her Heavenly Father had assured her she was one of a kind. This young girl became a student of the Holy Ghost. She found herself reading her bible when the other kids where outside playing. Ok GOD this a bit unusual for a girl this age, but this wasn't just an ordinary girl(remember that).
SN: Jamita was raised traditional Baptist..only the sanctified folk talked about the Holy Ghost. Which meant again, she was treading on unusual ground according to her upbringing. LORD WILL JAMITA MAKE IT TO ADULTHOOD ON THE PATH SHE WAS TAKING.(Keep on the journey you will see where Jamita didn't stay on common ground much!)
Ages 14-15: Jamita began to feel out of place again because her body didn't develop with all the other girls....oh and whoever said "the curse" was a welcome to womanhood could have kept that welcome wagon!!! Yea, I know life comes through the blood, but tell that to a teenager that is just trying to live. Oh my, the wives tales that I was told by my Madear and Momma....almost sent me into hiding. I had just come to start blossoming in my faith...LORD HELP ME!!
SN: during the natural maturing, Jamita matured spiritually. This young teenager wanted everyone to know about her GOD! She even held session with close friends to get them saved. This is the season she was named "bossy". Ok she was a bit radical with her faith, but her compassion drove her to be a bit forceful...."Give your life to CHRIST TODAY or die in your sins..it's your choice, but I've told you!" Forgive the teenage Jamita LORD, but I think some of those same friends are saved today for that "bossy" teenager. Lol and some have converted from different religions to Christianity because of that untactful teenager. Reading old journals..I'm surprised I wasn't stoned on the playground..lol
Ages 16-17: Introduced a whole new set of problems for Jamita...my body has blossomed beautiful, but there were no guys beating my door down. Those that I heard liked me were friends and I valued friendship like I valued family...so NO chance there. What happened to "fearfully and wonderfullymade?" Then peer pressure..."why haven't you been with a guy...what's wrong with you...if you were giving it up then guys would like you...you're cute from the eyes down, but your lips kind of take away from that, but if you were giving it up".....oh how I cried in my secret place...JESUS JESUS WHY WHY WHY ME!!! I found myself in a bad place....(a complete cement wall was built overnight)
SN: entry from this young lady's journal:
April 19th Dear GOD the words I'm about to write are not words of a Christian and please forgive me on the front end, but I gotta be real...I will never be hurt by another person again....I'm not going to allow anyone to get close enough to me to be in that position again and bet on this I will hurt them before they can hurt me!!!! If a guy want me, marry me. I ain't giving up jack!! F them!!
Your daughter
I told y'all to have an openminded. I'm totally trippin' ...I signed your daughter!! Lol nothing about that said GOD'S Daughter, but "In The Mist Of It All" HE knew my heart(through the hurt, rubbish, wall, crippling words)! HE knows yours too!
Question: Have you ever come to a crossroad in your faith and instead of doing what was right you succumbed to your emotions? Failed test
Take 5 tomorrow
Oh how awesome it was and is to hear from MY FATHER!!! At the tender age of 12, I gave my life(all of me) to GOD. I was saved that night in my secret place and on that following Sunday, I went up and took the chair before the world to become baptized. I was not playing about my new found worth and I believed GOD that I was fearfully and wonderfully made. My mustard seed faith was rapidly growing. I felt I could take on the world with GOD on my side. I was still scared, but it didn't show on the outside. My emotions had not yet caught up with the renewed man yet. Look at your neighbor and say "but GOD knew my heart". Glory!!!
Let me give you a few inserts of the next several years of my life that are needed to understand where this journey is going:
Ages 12-13: Jamita had found her worth because her Heavenly Father had assured her she was one of a kind. This young girl became a student of the Holy Ghost. She found herself reading her bible when the other kids where outside playing. Ok GOD this a bit unusual for a girl this age, but this wasn't just an ordinary girl(remember that).
SN: Jamita was raised traditional Baptist..only the sanctified folk talked about the Holy Ghost. Which meant again, she was treading on unusual ground according to her upbringing. LORD WILL JAMITA MAKE IT TO ADULTHOOD ON THE PATH SHE WAS TAKING.(Keep on the journey you will see where Jamita didn't stay on common ground much!)
Ages 14-15: Jamita began to feel out of place again because her body didn't develop with all the other girls....oh and whoever said "the curse" was a welcome to womanhood could have kept that welcome wagon!!! Yea, I know life comes through the blood, but tell that to a teenager that is just trying to live. Oh my, the wives tales that I was told by my Madear and Momma....almost sent me into hiding. I had just come to start blossoming in my faith...LORD HELP ME!!
SN: during the natural maturing, Jamita matured spiritually. This young teenager wanted everyone to know about her GOD! She even held session with close friends to get them saved. This is the season she was named "bossy". Ok she was a bit radical with her faith, but her compassion drove her to be a bit forceful...."Give your life to CHRIST TODAY or die in your sins..it's your choice, but I've told you!" Forgive the teenage Jamita LORD, but I think some of those same friends are saved today for that "bossy" teenager. Lol and some have converted from different religions to Christianity because of that untactful teenager. Reading old journals..I'm surprised I wasn't stoned on the playground..lol
Ages 16-17: Introduced a whole new set of problems for Jamita...my body has blossomed beautiful, but there were no guys beating my door down. Those that I heard liked me were friends and I valued friendship like I valued family...so NO chance there. What happened to "fearfully and wonderfullymade?" Then peer pressure..."why haven't you been with a guy...what's wrong with you...if you were giving it up then guys would like you...you're cute from the eyes down, but your lips kind of take away from that, but if you were giving it up".....oh how I cried in my secret place...JESUS JESUS WHY WHY WHY ME!!! I found myself in a bad place....(a complete cement wall was built overnight)
SN: entry from this young lady's journal:
April 19th Dear GOD the words I'm about to write are not words of a Christian and please forgive me on the front end, but I gotta be real...I will never be hurt by another person again....I'm not going to allow anyone to get close enough to me to be in that position again and bet on this I will hurt them before they can hurt me!!!! If a guy want me, marry me. I ain't giving up jack!! F them!!
Your daughter
I told y'all to have an openminded. I'm totally trippin' ...I signed your daughter!! Lol nothing about that said GOD'S Daughter, but "In The Mist Of It All" HE knew my heart(through the hurt, rubbish, wall, crippling words)! HE knows yours too!
Question: Have you ever come to a crossroad in your faith and instead of doing what was right you succumbed to your emotions? Failed test
Take 5 tomorrow
Don't allow the length of this entry to scare you...to understand my journey, you have to keep reading ! I appreciate all the support. Please leave a comment so that I know you're reading thanks.
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